The new world

I cant explain this feeling at all. Why do i feel good and bad at the same time? Why do i feel like crying but feel extremely happy seconds later? Insanity has gripped me. This feeling, is it real or just an illusion? What happened to my resolution to get all a1s this year? Why am i losing it all? Am i still myself or have i changed into someone new? Why do i feel so different. Is my limbic system in the process of maturising? I dont know...anything. All i want to do is feel good and be happy but i cant do that...at times. I hope i can trust myself to remain stable and get whats good. This year, im gonna be at the top im gonna show myself and everyone else what i have. Im gonna do it or will i? Insyallah evrything will be good and fine.