That wasn't random...it's an event of my life in disguise. Anyway, school has ended and i feel much better...em...ehem...fine, what I mean is that since school is over, i can concentrate on math and physics solely...although I still do play computer games. So, in the past week or so, i have learnt a great deal although what i learnt may not be of interest to the average guy walking by strip bar...I mean walking by the road...yes...ehem. Like the physicists these days are so so cool...they are proposing things like multiverses as in many many(billions and trillions) of universe, multi dimensions, supersymmetries, strings and many other awesome stuff. And they arent a bunch of lunatic ideas, there is beautiful mathematics and physical reasoning to back them up as well... I can't wait to become a theoretical physicist...YEAH!!!
Yesterday, or rather today, at around 12.30 - 1.30 am, i thought about the meaning of infinity and I had to stop or I would have killed myself... I started by asking this question: can you divide a number by 0?... I pictured an orange and started divided by half, one eighth, one thousandth and so on... and i realised that you could just keep dividing the orange but say, when you divide the orange by 10 to the power of -500, you would get 10 to the power 500 pieces of orange...then, i thought of string theory, if, we could divide the orange by the size of a string, our answer would be the highest possible, so what do people mean when people talk about dividing a certain number by zero?... is it possible, i mean, zero refers to nothing but does nothing exist? Is it possible to have nothing? NOTHING?... even in a vacuum, matter and anti matter particles are constantly being created and annihilated. So can you divide a number by nothing? Math teachers would say that you would get infinity, but does infinity really exist?
Think of a circle and start dividing it by two, four and so on. You would realise that even if you divided the circle on and on and on, there would be spaces between the lines of the circle and thus you could divide it on and on and on and never stop...so what exactly does infinity mean?, i mean how the hell can you divide the circle on and on and on?... it just does not make sense...so what do people mean by infinity, does it exist?...is there any meaning to an infinite string of numbers?... these thoughts almost killed me yesterday, i mean today...then, i realise...does mathematics have a dead end? is there a point a point in mathematics where the logical structure of mathematics break does and it becomes counter-intuitive?...AARGH...SO STRANGE...I'M GOING CRAZY...like as if emotional problems weren't enough, now i've got intellectual problems on top of the emotional ones...at this rate, i'm predicting an early death for me... I hope that maybe someday, i may be able to solve my problems...Now that i think about it, no wonder i've got almost all the symptoms of Asperger's Syndrome...bloody mental illness...
